Nacham

I was reading A Heart Like His, by Beth Moore. In it she mentions the Hebrew word Nacham. It's meaning stood out to me: 'the idea of breathing deeply as a physical display of one's feeling, usually sorrow, compassion, or comfort.' The word was used in II Samuel 12:24, where it meant 'being consoled over the death of an infant child.' This word seems to describe a lot about me.

On October 10, 2001 I went to the hospital to give birth to my first born son. My water had already broke, but I wasn't having any contractions. I was told it was going to be awhile and was put on a monitor. Just your basic story...but then everything changed. The baby started kicking and they lost him on the monitor, the nurse started checking on things and noticed I was bleeding. I was put on oxygen and my nurse started prepping me for an emergency c-section. They couldn't get in touch with my doctor, so the doctor on call came and performed the c-section. It all happened so fast, not once did I actually think I would lose my baby. When I woke up I was told I had a total placenta abruption and the baby didn't make it. This all happened within 10 or so minutes, but it was the longest day of my life. I felt such intense sorrow, didn't think I could ever get over that feeling. I probably wouldn't have either if it wasn't for God and the family and friends that He put in my life. Don't get me wrong even after six years and three boys later, I still have my moments. But, God always gives me the comfort and compassion that I need when I need it. II Corinthians 1 talks about God's comfort and how we can share that same comfort with others, through the sorrow that we have been through. I hope to be able to do that throughout my life, to comfort others, to tell them my story. Only God can give you joy in the midst of sorrow.